Will you ever notice me...
Saturday, October 29, 2005
11:09 AM
today was kinda fun day...
or shld i say its an unlucky day..
firstly went to buy some stuffs..
went to clementi to eat..
waited for so long..
went to the carpark..
my dad's car was full of birdshit..
yea..
the engine cannot be started..
sitting inside..
i could hear the loud n distinct birdshit falling onto the car..
attacking its rooftop windows n everywhere..
eee..
pls do not puke..
then we get down the car..
and start to push..
yes..
my first time in my entire life..
its actually quite fun..
when u finally c the car start moving..
sometimes its hard to be a gd fren..
u need to gif in more than wat u recieve..
bt then tink of the reason..
wat did u firstly be nice to tis person?
cos u accept for who he or she is..
u believe in ppl will treat u back in the same manner..
however sometime tis does not happen..
ppl take u for granted..
ppl take advantage of u being kind to them..
wat can u do?
i guess as long as u tink u r doing the right thing..
of believing in urself treating ur frens "not-bad"
then its perfectly fine..
i tink if u feel bad now of ill-treating ur fren..
or making use of them jus cos of they r nice to u..
wake up!
they will not be there for u always..
cos ppl do change..
for better or worse..
put urself in their shoes sometime..
tink of wat they will feel..
dun always insist on ur stand..
cos sometime it do hurt their feelings too..
sometimes u jus need to give in a little..
ur fren listen to ur problems attentively..
do u too?
or u jus tink its none of ur business..
its full of crap..
however sometime..
waste abit of ur precious time..
waste abit of ur energy..
waste abit of ur patheic $$..
waste abit of ur busfare or mrtfare..
it will earn u a lifetime friendship..
think abt it seriously..
Will you ever notice me...
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
10:21 PM
Ok i went cycling on sunday..actually planned to skate..bt then for one or another reason..we change our plan..great..in order to jus take our ic..we wasted $3..1.we place our stuff inside..
down the coin go..
yes..
i suddenly remember there is a need for ic..
2. we changed locker to a nearer place..
we went to exchange for coins..
down the coin go..
yes...where is our ic?
3.lastly and thankfully
we remember!
all the way we went..
stopping by at bedok jetty..
then..
to changi beach..
the place which held lots of our memories..
our friendship..
the days we spent together in the chalet..
took lots of pictures there..
miss those time lots!
when is the next chalet coming!!
oh no..
i suddenly remember..
we saw a naked guy..
not close up thx u..
he was far away..
bt then he pay no effort to cover himself after he saw us there..
great..
feel like kicking him down into the sea..
oops..
haha..
then rush back to return our bikes..
in the end we r stil late for ard 40 min..
bt then they dun care..
do they?
at least i dun..
cos i enjoy myself..
tis few days were really busy for me..
so tired..
jus came home..
then ZZZ monster came to find me..
hope u noe wat i mean..
if not feel free to consult me..
holidays is coming..
in 2 days time..
i am going to seriously spend tis holiday to the fullest!!
i will!
i miss my grandma..
a whole lots of her..
i picture those places we went together b4..
its so lonely now without her..
i jus feel sad..
i can't control my tears..
Will you ever notice me...
Sunday, October 23, 2005
12:44 AM
i am tired..i am really tired..both physically and mentally..i missing my minimum 8hrs slp everyday..i am tired of my frens..i am tired of those unappreciated acts..i am tired of those sarcastism..sometimes i feel so discouraged..i feel that i am so dumb now..all the while..
Will you ever notice me...
Thursday, October 20, 2005
10:44 PM
The past three days were idiotic..tuesday:i got gastric pain..puke..wednesday:i got a bruise on my hand..its a long story..refer to below (annex 1)thursday:pissed off with my fren..such a incooperative team member..refer to below (annex2)annex 1:i board the bus.the bus was pack.i was standing near the door.or shld i say at the door.i didn wan to board at 1st.bt i knew if i dun.i would not catch any bus till like past 7.the uncle asked me to tap my card.i was pissed off.as if i wan to eat his few cents.i did wan to tap my card.bt not with an old uncle lying his whole body on the machine.i cant possibly tap his body rite?at dunoe wat stop.the door flung open.my hand was there.no warning was given.a bruise appeared immediately.all thx to that inconsiderate uncle.annex 2:we were discussing our project.she n the one as usual chit chatting with one another.we were choosing the colours or watever font size.she n the one was looking at frendster at guys pic.we distributed our duties.she stare at us coldy:wats my job? nothing arh?i got nothing to say to her.i told them tml rehearsal for oral presentation.she told me tml dunoe wat heck teacher showing a movie.i shut her up.she was pissed.so was i.end of story.stop scrolling down.
Will you ever notice me...
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
10:55 PM
Dun always assume i will be there for uSometimes i might jus dissapear without a reason..remember to come to look for me..cos there must be something that had happened..i might be crying at one corner..dun take me for granted..cos one day i might be gone forever..cherish ur everyday..cherish ur bestest best frens..love them as u never love some1 else b4jiaxing taught me a quote today:Life is like an onion. U peel layer by layer and sometimes u weep.I heard the stories..i feel sad..bt i cannot do anything..i feel so helpless..
Will you ever notice me...
Sunday, October 16, 2005
9:40 PM
Was talking to bh yesterday..Telling him stories abt my grandma..I was so emotional..i cried in front of the com..like a fool crying to nobody..he cried too..i can't hold back my tears..i can't think of other things when i am abt to cry..i can't stop myself from crying..i can't stop missing my grandma..i need time..i got to occupy myself with other things..why do i sound like i just broke up with my bf or wat?nah.. no bf = no break up
Will you ever notice me...
Friday, October 14, 2005
10:57 PM
HEADACHE..is the most terrible thing that ever happened in me..i hate headache..the feeling is totally sux..i hate headache..it dulls my day and forbid my activities for the day..i hate headache..cos it means the end of the world for me..actually wan to go c doctor today..bt finally the panadol is taking its effect..suppressing the pain..bt however not curing the root of the problem..i guess if it relapse again tml or some other day..i will go c the doctor..i miss her..the telephone calls she made..the chats i had with her..
Will you ever notice me...
Thursday, October 13, 2005
10:19 PM
She has gone to the beautiful wonderland..I really miss her alot..I jus can't control myself..The days i had with her was still so vivid..I love her..I miss her..I cried for her..She lives forever in my heart..She is the greatest grandma in the world..She had wonderful memory..She remembers every1's birthday..She dotes her children & her grandchildren..I simply just miss her badly..I can't get her off my mind..I know she would be enjoying in the other worldinstead of suffering here..But i just can't accept the fact..Give me some time..maybe a few months..maybe a few years..Maybe the wound will heal..maybe it will not..
Will you ever notice me...
Friday, October 07, 2005
11:54 PM
Argh..was enjoying yesterday..the movie treat..haha..then went home with a terrible headache..retribution arh?having headache to me is a torture..it simply means the end of the world..i will be suffering..my family will suffer too..i hate having headache..headache sux..i envy those ppl who never never ever have headache before..sometime life is so short..or shld i say time passes too fast?recall when is the last time u say "next time i will do it?"sometime u do have the chance to do it..bt have u ever wonder?u might jus lose the chance and never do that dunoe thing again..i didn say u canot say that sentence or phrase again..is jus that u might regret ur action for ur entire life..dun u tink so?
Will you ever notice me...
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
10:11 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELVIN!!wahahahaha..hope that we have suprised u!dun under-estimate our power k?haha..thou not much of a surprise..bt as long as u r shocked..and touched..and happy..and watever..i have limited vocabulary..we have completed our mission!yes..honestly i also enjoy being part of the mission team..such as hiding at the mrt station wif becky..then pretend to come late..leaving becky behind at the mrt station..its nice fun...hope u enjoy... =)the meal was alright..thou i did have some difficulty in finishing the cake..haha..
Will you ever notice me...
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
11:29 PM
OKOK..its finally over..exams is over..repeat again:EXAMS is over..only exams..there are still tests coming on..so anti-climax rite?i also tink so..thou not going to put 100% to study for tests or wat so ever..bt then the pressure is there..i haven enjoy myself YET..Went to esplanade roof top jus now..with my classmates..nah..the feeling is so different..i prefer going with my gangfrens tt time..at least it is much more relaxing..i feel comfortable with them..i can be honest..i can be myself..oya..i realise frm recent posts frm other ppl's blog..there is trend of ppl asking ppl to tell them they love them..so i shall reassure those we require my love..or maybe u dun wan my love..haha..bt i shall insist on giving you..my love is jus a friend-friend love..pls do not mistake me as a lesbian or smth..thx!jus in case u say i am biased or smth..i shall start with alphabetic order..i love becks.i love gladysi love kelvin.i love limin.i love maggie.i love qiongxia.i love siewlini love wendy.i love zimin.i love everyone!!thou limin is not under my links..cos i KNOW she reads my blog without tagging..so BEWARE everyone..
Will you ever notice me...
Saturday, October 01, 2005
8:52 PM
My friendster forecast for today:If you're trying to figure something out and it's not going so well because you just can't seem to get five minutes alone to think without either a phone, beeper, computer or actual human visitor interrupting, it might be time to pull a disappearing act.
Be sure to let one person know where you are -- just so your loved ones won't worry.
Maybe i should try..
Will you ever notice me...
7:41 PM
Today is a bad day..Everything went wrong..I dunoe why..I feel like a fool..the more i think..the more i hate dislike myself..i swear i will never do such thing again..i will never be like that again..i will jus lead my happy-go-lucky life..and not bother by this kind of things..i feel terrible..i need to face reality..i want surprises..my nose is spoilt..thinking i am going to catch a cold or smth..keep sneezing for nth..
Will you ever notice me...
