Will you ever notice me...
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
9:20 PM
white valentine..does it sounds familiar to u?haha..i only noe it today..white valentine is on 14 march..one month after western valentine..the story behind it:on 14 feb the girl is suppose to gif the guy smth..to express her feelings..if the girl like the guy first..and the guy did not take any initiative..so one month later..on 14 march the guy is suppose to return the girl smth..if he also has the same feelings towards her..if nv return a gift back that means he dun like her..hehe..sounds sweet arh?i nv knew it till today..*sick*
Will you ever notice me...
Monday, March 13, 2006
10:45 PM
coughing is bad for health..yes wat am i talking..they say coughing too much will lead to tb..*faint*coughing is noisy..when everyone is busy concentrating to do their paper..i am the one creating the most noise in the lecture hall..outwining the pens n liquid paper..coughing is time consuming..when everyone is busy writing..i have to use my hand to cover my mouth..and drink water to silent my cough..coughing is irritating..when u r sleeping soundly..suddenly u start coughing..and tears start to flow freely down..by the time u will be awake already..coughing is contagious..when i start coughing..i can hear ppl following me..when ppl cough..i also have the urge to cough..its bad..its a continous ongoing cycle..so the morale of the story..pls do not fall sick..and get urself a cough..
Will you ever notice me...
Monday, March 06, 2006
5:31 PM
wat on earth caused me to be disappointed..yes my bitchy bimbos gang..i dunoe whether this blog will offend anyone..bt i jus wan to say..if not i feel like an idiot..hiding my feelings..and be angry with nobody care business..saturday outing was sort of my bday celebrations rite?or did i get it wrong?i feel so wrong to be there..there was no signs of joy of my bday celebration..i remembered for becky bday..we rush down to town early one day jus to get her present..we went kbox on her bday..kelvin bday..we went swensens n planned a surprise for him..and the yes fann wong big board of bday wishes..lm bday..we went crystal jade as she nv went there b4..for others bday maybe we did not have time to celebrate together..
but the problem here is we r all together on sat..we went food court..not that i mind..i am perfectly fine with it..jus that one after another..saying u dun wan to eat there..so u all left the food court..i tot we r having dinner TOGETHER..we shld have come n go as one or smth rite?i feel so insignificant at that point of time..as if nobody gif a darn abt it..maybe it jus bullshit to u all..it matters to me..it bugs me..
Will you ever notice me...
Saturday, March 04, 2006
10:59 PM
disappointment again yet again..sometimes i jus feel like hiding in one corner n cry..its beyond the heart can take it..u would jus break down..none of you all gif a darn abt it..
Will you ever notice me...
Thursday, March 02, 2006
11:16 PM
yes the world is becoming more pratical to me..once u turn ur back against someone..that someone would nt even give a darn of u..u can do so much for someone to brighten up their day..when on ur that special day..how many will turn to brighten up ur day?1. take my 1st 3 months fren for example..we went thru some many things together..jus because we have some misunderstanding..everything is different..2. take my now sort of best fren..pratical of her to tell me..i dun tink there is a need to give me a birthday present..i dun gif a darn on whether i recieve a present or not..its jus the thot of it make me fury abt it..when it is ur birthday last year..u told me to buy u present..i did..i not being calculative here..its jus so contradictory..did i get the spelling correct..who cares..3. take my so called china mates..i am glad of the only card they wrote for me..but when its their birthday i put in extra effort..plan a gathering..buy the present n the card..and put other ppl names down..4. ppl who asked to be wish on their birthday..when it is my birthday..did u gif a darn to msg me back?no..u did not..its not the point of u forgetting my birthday..or purposely choose not to send me a msg..its the effort of u to remember and to wish me..yes i am not making any sense here..i noe there r new frens u may have made..bt there r old frens that shld nt be forgotten too..i jus dun get..why for someone else birthday..i would go all means to celebrate for them..when it is mine..i feel that all ppl r disappearing..thou there r still some left..which make me realise they r one who care..who make the effort to remember..who try means jus to brighten up my day..i am thankful..i am glad..i am touched..thx..birthday have become a routine of asking money..in my bitchy bimbo clique..we r used to jus state wat we wan..then we jus split the money..its seemed like another draggy session..which make u more broke..which u dread most..but when it is ur birthday..have u gif a darn abt any ppl would also tink like tis?darn it..why have birthday become like tis?its suppose to be a happy session..ppl celebrate n share ur joy..not ppl swearing behind a waste of money..honestly..a birthday sms means alot to me..its make me realise that u still do care for me..u remember my special day..i did celebrate my birthday..with ppl wishings here n there..but there r also a hell lot of reflections done..birthday is nt a happy occasion for me..behind my smile..its like full of confusion..happy 18th birthday Peiling =)
Will you ever notice me...
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
11:37 PM
From the years that i remember wat i did for my birthday..it was always saddness showering upon me..take last year for example..i was so troubled by the decision of going jc or poly..crying over the stress i get frm my parent n relatives n etc..in the end..i surrender to the peer pressure by going jc..yeah i do regret..but wat can i do..my birthday this year..again crying over for spilled milk..u mus be thinking wats the point..i am jus nuts..my chinese results sux..really sux..its out of my expectation..not that i have high expectation..its jus under the normal range..totally disappointed in myself..hence n therefore..i came out with smth horrible.. after those crying over spilled milk..i shall cut down all my entertainment source..i shall stop going out on sat n stay at home to jolly-well study..i shall stop talking on the phone n study for my upcoming test..i shall stop msging n study my lect notes..study study study..mad mad mad..i hate studying..i hate school..i always love my birthday..and i feel proud of it..maybe i should start reconsider then..
Will you ever notice me...
