MeMoriEs aRe foRevEr tHerE.....

~~Monday, November 28, 2005~~

5:48 PM

last but not least..
before i head with for long awaited trip..
i wonder..
how the place will look like..
how the people will be like..
definitely i will not bring back tons of stuff..
i will probably bring back lots of ~~shampoo~~ books..
haha..
i wonder..
whether people in Singapore will miss me..
really miss..
~~maybe i jus a nobody and nobody misses my presence~~
the most hurting message from her..
i thought u would wish me a happy journey or wat..
nope u did not..
anyway..
i will not be affected by one person..
dun let that one person spoilt my trip!
Everyone..
wish me a happy journey!
Bon voyage! =)

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, November 26, 2005~~

11:42 PM

怎么说忘就忘记这甜蜜的过去
被思念包着厚厚的糖衣
不想再为了你伤心这最冷的夏季
慢慢地慢慢结成冰

承诺变悲哀悲哀因我被爱
悲哀是因为你不在
我好想抱着你诉苦却显得好无助
无助的让人想痛哭

我只想要和你在一起
朝着幸福走去像恋人般的简单甜蜜
我只想要和你不分离
怎么轻易放弃
说你忘记

爱情怎么会让每颗心都碎
我不再相信你
却又慢慢想起你

我想这一定是报应都怪我太贪心
才让你头也不回的离去
黄色丝巾是想念在树上被风吹
孤单的孤单一个人无法沉睡

Will you ever notice me...

1:15 AM

Argh..
hate it hate it..
i did something terrible..
i hurt someone's feelings..
someone who is my closest fren..
i want to apologise..
but you dun give me that chance..
i didn't mean it..
its just..
i jus hope u will forget abt that..
and we can be the same as usual..
thou i dun tink u read my blog..
i jus want to say..
sorry boon.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Friday, November 25, 2005~~

10:59 PM

The trip down to town was abit weird..
Other than becky..
no one was appreciating the christmas deco..
thou it was not that attractive..
nor interesting..
bt that is our purpose rite?
anyway..
christmas is coming!!
whoa~~
it will be great to have christmas celebration..
whereby u gather at dunoe where..
to eat turkey..
sing christmas songs..
exchange presents!
specially with ur frens who have the same enthusiasm as u..
i dun wan to get a boring fren..
who complain boring here n there..
who say nth to do..
dun spoilt my desired christmas day..
ok i shall plan this after my long awaited trip..

Will you ever notice me...

10:59 PM

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, November 21, 2005~~

12:04 AM

sometimes i tink friendship can be so fragile..
when there is a need..
you approach the person..
when there is nth..
u hack care the person..
not even a simple care n concern msg..
or jus a simple meet up..
to maybe drink coffee or wat..
i dunoe..
in a certain point of ur life..
u might be super close to a certain person..
bt after a period of time..
u found out that she/he is nt that wonderful..
u will try to free away frm him/her..
isnt the world so realistic?
i really tink..
in life..
how many bestest best fren can u have?
the one u will call up for nth..
the one u will meet up even thou there is nth to talk abt..
the one u will jus go to him/her hse to laze ard..
the one u will feel that smth is missing when he/she does nt contact u for a few days..
obivously bestest best fren can be either of the same sex..
or opposite..
it does not mean..
of the opposite sex
they mus be ur bf or gf..
they can be ur buddy..
bestest best buddy..
i tink i am one who like to get things done quickly..
i dun like the feeling of dragging things..
when i c the thing go haywire..
i will be pissed off..
so frens of mine..
pls do not drag here n there..
i admit sometime i do also like to drag..
but not that often..
plus dun gif excuses that it's stupid..
i hate to listen to that kind of excuses..
i rather hear ur truth reason..
at least i noe u r truthful..
i will forgive u for ur honesty..
get it?

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, November 19, 2005~~

11:35 PM

Today was quite an okay day..
went down to collect mag's passport..
then end up taking the wrong bus to my workplace..
or shld i say the bus overshoot where we r supposed to land..
ok nvm..
so went back to collect my pay..
i really feel so guilty of quitting tt job..
its nice, slacking, easy, simple..watever..
the ppl are nice and yet..
BIG DISCOVERY:
me and mag found out that golden mile complex....
is actually previously a HOTEL!
should be lar..
from wat we conclude..
the swimming pool..
the rooms..
the lights..
whoa..
cannot imagine that..
hehe..
after that went to town..
to highlight n cut our hair..
i want "not so obivous bt visible"
it turned out to be "very obivous n very visible"
all thx to that lady who told me not tt obivous cos i am still schooling..
great..
the colour is so bright n striking..
i dun blame her..
bt jus dunoe wat to do with it now..
mag's hair was alrite..
nice~
and she dun look like nerd.. (specially for mag to c)
went to have dinner..
patheic four..
the rest all went home without a bye..

**jingle bells jingle bells**

Will you ever notice me...

~~Friday, November 18, 2005~~

9:26 PM

不够勇敢

守在你身边看你每一个笑脸
笑得那么甜是他给了你誓言
不敢有埋怨都是我心甘情愿
或许有一天我的爱你能看见
一天一点你渐渐走远
我却像空气被忽略
只怪我的爱不够勇敢
一直沉默的作你的依赖让
一切石沉大海
baby now i need you by my side
过去的一切该怎么放开
without you i can't fall in love again
without you i can't
oh baby i can't fall in love again(i can't never fall in love)
til the end of time in a world so close to me
i'm just so in love with a girl who's in my heart
each and everyday i wanna have you next to me
and i say to the world i'll never let it end
明明知道直到有一天发现
你不再有笑脸

Will you ever notice me...

9:16 PM

Ok..
my job was alrite..
jus plain boring and super freezing cold there..
the place was super ulu..
plus those ulu ppl..
will make u go crazy..
dunoe whether shld i continue working..
or go look for other jobs..
i jus sit down and stare at the com for the whole day..
some typing here n there..
some reading here n there..
sound easy..
sound simple..
bt then the problem is the place of the office..
ulu ulu ulu..

today when i was boarding the super-packed bus..
i saw smth horrible terrible vegetable..
AN OLD MAN gif up his seat to a pregnant lady..
the guy beside the OLD MAN gif up his seat to the OLD MAN..
great..
A DUNOE-CUM-FRM-WHERE-WOMAN jus CLIMB into the seat..
when that guy stood up..
the guy was shocked..
i was shocked..
the guy had nth to say..
so was i..
left the OLD MAN standing up..
feel like punching the woman..
such a inconsiderate person..
i shall bless her with watever u r thinking..
i am not evil..
i jus can't stand her..
i shall bless myself also..
bless myself with courage to go scold her if i ever get to c her again..

argh..
i regret telling them..
i swear..
i really swear tis time..
i hate tis feeling..
like the world is against me..
darn darn darn..
i lost the battle with my tears again..

****christmas****
where is my santa claus?

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, November 16, 2005~~

10:54 PM

ok..
i feel like squeezing the whole darn GOLDEN MILE COMPLEX..
the bus thingy is making me going bonkers..
i jus cant get the correct bus to get me there!
darn it..
argh..
so super idoitic angry..
pissed again..
plus my headache..
its jus not my day..
i shld have went somewhere to enjoy myself..
not trying to control my anger at home..
*i miss her* *pray for me*

Will you ever notice me...

3:34 PM

i tink tis is weird..
i dreamt of her..
or was i jus thinking of her.
my aunt called..
she recommend me a job..
out of the blue..
she is those close-but-dun-tok-often..
i also dunoe..
i am so surprised..
i hang up the phone..
i wanted to tell my grandma smth..
i told her in my heart..

i suddenly missed her cooking..
all those yummy tasty food..
i hate vegetables..
she would specially cook chicken for me..
i hate those unknown organs soup..
she would specially cook lotus root soup for me..
i love her house nearby char siew..
she would go all the way down to buy for me..
i love to watch scv..
she would tune to my channel and give up her show..
i miss her..
i miss her alot..
wat can i do?

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, November 13, 2005~~

10:55 PM

yesterday was fun, tiring, enjoying and etc..
went town n bugis with my beloved frens..
we shop frm 12pm to 9pm plus..
can u believe it?
we didn have any major breaks..
only during dinner time..
while the rest of the time..
we are crazy shopping ard..
if not making lame comments..
and cracking any jokes out of the blue..
i love the feeling..
being surrounded by my frens..
i tink frens are very impt..
they accompany u thru day n nite..
happy n sorrow..
i love my frens..
i hope they love me too..
i guess the main thing to maintain a frenship
is to..
compromise..
give in to one another when neccessary..
cos u nv noe when u need ur frens to help u..
especially to those who-noe-urself-very-well..
in a friendship..
if u dun intend to give in or at least a care & concern msg..
then why bother to maintain tis friendship?
until u need ppl help/ ppl accompany..
then u cum back looking for ur patheic fren..
too late..
for me,
i might as well nv noe u b4..

ok enuf of my big theory..
i didn buy lots of things..
bt bought a lot of rubbish..
haha..
guess if i could save up on those rubbish things..
i could have bought the t-shirt at bugis..
i still wan the t-shirt..
bt hope when i am back in bugis the nxt time..
it will be still there..
especially its only 10bucks!!
i am jus too broke for a 10bucks t-shirt..
all in all..
i enjoy myself lots yesterday..
thx to my beloved frens!!

anyway..
when is christmas coming??
i wan to celebrate christmas!
i wan christmas present!!
any1 have any plans already?
any1 wan to be my santa claus?

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, November 10, 2005~~

10:57 PM

I am so darn idiotic pissed off with myself..
for one reason or another..
maybe i am not angry with myself..
bt jus the dates n times canot coordinate..
ok..

i am angry that i canot find a job..

i am angry that when i find something that i can go apply for..
the dates clash with smth else..
feel like killing myself..

i am angry that i am not earning money..
bt i keep spending money..
i dunoe y..
maybe holiday means spend-money-days

i think i gt lorries n trucks of things to buy..
bt i jus dun haf $$..
plus i dun haf a job!
idiotic ass..

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, November 09, 2005~~

10:07 PM

its another boring day in my boring life..
having my holidays now..
bt i am not enjoying..
cos i dunoe wat can i do?
canot find a temp job..
due to watever reasons..
that means no $$..
got to go back sch for remedials..
not forgetting to mention my ever sucky results..
i dread to c my result slip now..
i wan to enjoy..
i wan to play..
i wan to slack..
i wan to sleep..

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, November 05, 2005~~

10:51 PM

Have u ever missed someone and felt TERRIBLE
because u think that he/she doesn't miss u?
Almost everyone has..
Missing someone is terrible but at the same time,
a sweet feeling.
U will be sitting around wondering if u meant anything to him/her.
Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.
Rushing to the phone once it rings,hoping that it's him/her.
Looking out of the window hoping thathe/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs.
Sitting in front of the television but thinking of her/him missing the final episode of your favourite show.
Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u went out together.
Thinking of how nice it will be to situnder the stars again,
talking about everything,your dreams, plans, future.
Logging on to the internet hoping to see him/her online.
When u realise that he/she isn't onlineand did not return your page,
u will start worryingifhe/she is okay.

Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.
It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know
that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care and u indulgein the feeling of loving/caring for him/her.
But missing someone and not knowing ifhe/she is feeling the same is TERRIBLE.
U feel as if u are being left alone.
So if u miss someone, tell him/her and let them know.
At the same time, ask if they miss u.
Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid.
If u are the one being missed and u knowi t,
let the other party know.if u miss him/her too, tell them.
Don't let them wait.
Dont let pride or fear stop you, be bold.

i wonder, does any1 will miss me?

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, November 03, 2005~~

5:33 PM

Fun fun fun!!
yesterday went to play arcade..
althou less variety there..
as compared to last time..
however the feeling is so diff..
playing with my frens..
CAR RACING!!
my fav..
whereas others are interested in FIGHTING..
haha..
we shall go again nxt time!

today went to my fren hse to bake cookies!
first time in my life..
dun worry..
i did not burnt down her kitchen..
nor did i spoilt any utensils..
its all still in a piece..
so am i..
so is my fren..
thou most of it is done by her..
bt at least i manage to help out..
the cookies is yum yum..
hehe..
at least i achive smth today!

maybe i jus a nth to u..

Will you ever notice me...

~~Tuesday, November 01, 2005~~

11:46 PM

I finally finish watching the u-will-tink-its-nonsense-show...
but indeed the ending is nice & sweet..
from that show..
i learn alot..
no matter is on ur personal realtionship..
or how u view ur life..
never give up..
till the very last moment..
especially on ur love life..
i think that their relationship is so "hard to get"
after many incidents..
they still manage to hold on to each other tightly..
who don't look upon to tis kind of story plot happening to them?
bt then in how many million of ppl does it happen to?
i guess the most important thing between couples is TRUST
it sound so easy bt is the most difficult thing to maintain..
don't u tink so?
are u looking for your prince charming/princess pretty to arrive?
at least i am

Will you ever notice me...